2019 is a tough year but I am tougher.
Someone left, I lose myself
My aunt died
Someone came back
And I lose myself again
I had late night thoughts looking for my worth. I sleep at 3am woke up at 5am and travel for work at 6am. I don’t have enough sleep and sometimes I cry inside a cubicle. I don’t eat that much that cause me to lose some weight (My fault, I know so please forgive me).
I want to end this year by moving forward through loving myself more and trust God’s plans for me. And moving on from the pain that someone caused me. To him, God knows I prayed for someone like you but for some reasons I was the only one assumed that you are the one. In your perspective about “love is not enough” . I understand you on that.
Someone told me that I have to voice out what I feel and I already did that to them. To the people who truly understand what I feel. Minsan I don’t say na “I’m not ok” because talking is too exhausting. Pahahabain mo pa at ipapaliwanag mo pa kung bakit di ka ‘ok’ eh paulit-ulit lang naman ang mga dahilan ko. Napagod na lang akong magsalita at hinarap ang katotohanan na tapos na nga. Ginising ko ang aking sarili sa kasalukuyan at hinahanda na para sa kinabukasan. Minsan may mga bagay na di na dapat pang pag-usapan para tayo ay makausad na. It takes some time to forgive someone but it takes more time to forgive yourself for giving too much love that you think you deserve.
Goodbye 2019! You gave me so much pain and I never thought that I can make it to the end.
Thank you, thank you so much sa mga taong inintindi ang sitwasyon ko from bahay to work. Ayoko na maging ganun ulit so please, Lord I need your guidance in every decisions that I am going to make.
I will never forget those people who gave me some advices about love and life 😊 you know who you are guys!
Thank you sa mga nakasama ko sa bundok. More akyat to come!
In 2020, more travel to come and success in life! Ready na si Norchie(Toklay)!
Happy New Year and God bless us all! 😊